One of the lies I have believed for too long is that I am invisible. While there were many successes throughout my life, I was rarely recognized or appreciated for what I had accomplished. Over and over again, others were given opportunities and roles while I felt “put on the back burner,” unseen, or overlooked. It is easy to feel invisible in the season of mothering children in our homes. Especially when, for years, we need to schedule everything around naps, meals, baths and bedtimes.
Seven times over the past 20 years my car was hit from behind while I was sitting still. This led to a fear of being in vehicles. I have wondered, Am I really invisible to everyone? How is it that I have been repeatedly hit, and how is it that I was not seen sitting at the light, on the highway, or yielding to an oncoming vehicle? I must be invisible!
My wrong thinking has impacted my life and the way I minister to others. Perhaps you can relate in your own ministry interactions? Incorrect thinking tempts me to focus on myself versus focusing on others and their interests. It can prompt me to become negative instead of energizing me to develop spiritual generations of laborers. In order to think correctly I have to come back to the truth of the Word of God. It is enough that, regardless of what happens in or through my life, God sees me.
Genesis 16 is the first time in Scripture we are presented with a name for God. Hagar, an “invisible” servant girl, is fleeing from Sarai (her master). Hagar obeyed Sarai to lie with Abram and she conceived. Sarai then became angry, jealous, and harsh with her and Hagar fled seeking solace. The angel of the Lord found Hagar in the wilderness and promised her that she would bear an offspring,
Ishmael . She was amazed that the angel of the Lord saw her and knew her difficult story.
“So she called the name of the Lord who spoke to her, ‘You are a God of seeing,’ for she said, ‘Truly here I have seen him who looks after me.’” (Genesis 16:13)
In Hebrew this name of God is El Roi, The God of Seeing. Hagar knew that God saw her and understood her circumstances. This precious passage of Scripture instructs me. If God saw a young slave woman in the wilderness, I can trust Him at his word that He sees me and knows all the details of my life. I have to continue to come back to this truth almost on a daily basis. As we are currently processing some personal decisions this truth has been a solace for my heart.
My prayer is to be free from the lie of being invisible as I live for the One who sees me. Psalm 139: 16 states, “Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there were none of them.” Believing God at his Word brings hope, encouragement, and truth to the depth of my soul. God models seeing people and on this truth I can build my life.
As we minister in our homes and on campus let’s pray that others will know that they are seen and valued by us, but more importantly, by the Lord. May the Lord give us faith to trust Him at His word that He sees us and we are not invisible. What we do for Him truly matters, even when He is the only One who sees.