By Linnette Bachman
Sitting in a beginner yoga class at our local YMCA, I was shocked at how difficult a simple stretch was for me. The instructor said to us, “this is one of those stretches you will have to just show up in— you won’t really master it today or tomorrow or next week. But if you’ll just show up, day after day, it will come.”
In that moment, I had the thought that “just showing up” was what I needed to do in my personal times with Jesus. I’ve struggled as a mom to let go of my picture of the extended time with the Lord I had in my pre-kids days. Many moms have told me to let it look different in this season, but still I have longed for that unrushed time to gaze and linger in His Word and in prayer.
In the absence of that unobstructed time, I have been tempted to quit altogether. Simply “showing up” isn’t impressive. It doesn’t express the depth of my devotion to Him. It might even seem lazy.
But it is doable. It is a step.
So for the last month, I determined to “just show up” each day in personal time with the Lord. To fight for it – even if it meant only a few minutes to crack open my Bible. Some mornings I answered a question or two in a Bible study I began working through. Some mornings I reviewed some TMS verses. Some mornings I read one verse.
And He met me day after day. He gave verses that spoke directly to me day after day. I began to see some of our familiar verses in a new way:
“Call to Me and I will answer you, and will tell you great and hidden things that you have not known.” Jeremiah 33:3
“But know that the Lord has set apart the godly for himself; the Lord hears when I call to him.” Psalm 4:3
“Hear, O Lord, when I cry aloud; be gracious to me and answer me! You have said, ‘Seek my face.’ My heart says to you ‘Your face, Lord, do I seek.’” Psalm 27:8
Think of what these verses don’t say: they don’t say we have to light a candle, read through the Bible in a month, or sit in silence for three hours. They don’t say we have to have a long ritual to be able to approach our God and be heard by him. We can call and seek Him, and He will meet us. Hallelujah!
And what I have found is that as He’s been meeting me, I’ve longed in my heart for more. I’ve become aware of how good a hydrated soul feels. I’ve become more aware of my thirst. Desire has increased. I’ve also become aware of how distracted and resistant my flesh can be to turning to the Lord. I’ve been humbled. My sense of need for Him has increased.
Dave and I are taking a couple steps to help me get some more of that extended time— a half day on the calendar each month and intentionally blocking off Sabbath days—but I am also learning that it’s ok to just show up. The Lord loves to meet me.
As I’ve shared my journey with a college woman I’m meeting with, I’ve learned that my experience isn’t unique. She too can find it difficult to meet consistently with Jesus in the midst of a busy life. I think being honest about my struggle encouraged her. This has caused me to wonder, do many of us have unrealistic or burdensome expectations that are creating a barrier to simply meet with the Lord?
I encourage you, mama, to “just show up” in your time with the Lord this week. Turn your heart to Him, and let Him meet you! And please remind me to do the same!
Linnette and her husband Dave began their marriage and Nav staff career in 2005 (EDGE and SIT at Colorado State) and currently lead the NavCity and collegiate work in Nashville. They have 5 children: Kate (10), Kylie (9), McKenzie (7), Daniel (6), and Andrew (2). Linnette and Dave are passionate about the shared mission of raising up disciple-makers and raising up their kids.